January 19, 2012

Whitened pine needles                                                                                
Crisp air steaming in our noses 
Smiling hellos and goodbyes 
Like we never slipped 
Down this steep angled hill. 
Frigid waves, fingers shaking 
Looking up to face the sky 
Only when we remember at times 
How we've forgotten the warmth of the sun 
We absentmindedly ask for forgiveness 
and hope it comes before we reach the end 
   
Far off a sailors waltz calls 
Drunken adventures and worlds to see 
Oceans to master, maps to make, 
Pretty impulse romances to try... 
Yet this beckoning call 
Tells a heavy tale, 
Sadly howling in the nighttime storms... 
   
Still it pulls us away from the bitter reality 
That is home. 
Here 
This northwest wind 
closes proclaiming mouths 
so it hurts to smile 
and hushes precious shouts of joy 
It calls us names like Insanity, Naive 
and we forget how to remain in truth 
Returning from voyages to unknown, 
Sadness feeling like blanket chills 
Rocking shipwrecked wood--
and we say that is freedom? 
No escape changes anything, ever. 
It's living here that sometimes feels like slow monotonous breathing, 
and that will be all 
Until we find our love again, 
Which we won't 
We never do, 
We won't remember. 
   
But 
Lucky truths define themselves 
Before our narrowed eyes 
And 
Warmth finds us. 
We cannot search enough 
Try enough 
Read learn grow speak hear enough 
Skeptics 
We're running numb 
So we can't feel enough to stop 
And the warmth finds us. 
That's how it comes, 
The sunlight peeks through these grey towers and white, 
and dawn is on my face 
Like I never knew 
and I remember 
The newness that means fire 
melting all the harsh 
and igniting all the good, 
Sparks on my tongue 
so powerfully sweet. 
   
We laugh heartily 
warmth returns to our lungs 
And ours is the steam that we see 
The vapor echoes of praising hearts, 
Glory in misfortune turned 
To a story of hide and seek 
    
freedom in fires lit by 
Helping hands 
Magical hands 
Miracle workers in our days 
Before we even knew to 
Think of remembering to look up.   
12-22-11